Isn't it too early for this??

Ok so tonight it happened!! The question I knew would come but definately thought it would come way down the road. I also owe it all to channel flipping. This is precisely why I DVR everything and do not watch commercials. A commercial came on and in the commercial someone used the word sex. Well of course Tommy says to Tony and I "What is sex?" I look at Tony he gets up and leaves the room and promptly says "Ask your mother (the punk)" So then I say "Maybe daddy didn't hear the question so go ask him" So he runs back to our room shouting at the top of his lungs "SEX SEX SEX daddy what is SEX?" The sound out of his mouth oh it took every fiber of being not to yell out "Tommy Tommy you are going to give your momma a heart attack don't ever say that word again" Of course creating shame and then even making the word more tantalizing for him. I am a firm believer that you should not lie to your kids and when they ask a question you should answer it honestly. I have had many questions from my way to big for his britches boy like "What happens when you die? When will I die? Can we all die at the same time? Why do we poop? Why don't you have a penis? I can handle all of those questions but the sex one floored me a bit. So anyway, I sent my boy back to his daddy thinking that surely this is a question daddy can take on. Well no not exactly daddy said "That is a great question for your momma, she loves these kinds of conversations with you. So my son comes skipping down the hallway saying "Momma you get to tell me what sex is" Ok so I tell him "Tommy sex is something that two adult people do together when they have been in love for a very very long time, it is also the way God lets us make babies" So he looks at me a little puzzled and then I said to him "Now why don't you go tell daddy what sex is" You see I am very curious as to how it will translate for him. So he runs back and says "Daddy guess what sex is? Sex is when two people stick together and it is because of love and then God gives you a baby". I love it did I say I thought it was a good idea to be honest with our kids? Oh and then the last thing he said (and I have no idea where he heard this) "Momma another good word is SEXY SEXY SEXY (shouting it of course)" I said "Buddy where did you hear that word and he said "it is just a word that I think is funnier than just plain old sex. " I gracefully redirected him from that and we started talking about his day tomorrow with his Poppy (which I am sure he will be sharing with my father what he learned about sex GREAT) While he was yammering on about what he was going to do with Poppy I had this flash forward thought of me getting to have all those fun talks because Tony "knows" how much I love them. One more time who said it was a good idea to be honest with your kid? I think the little birds and the bees story may not be so bad afterall. Pray for me will ya

Tommy the deep thinker!!

I know, I know it has been a really long time. I figured since our friend Todd finally posted that it was about time that I do the same.

Here is a sweet little story from our deep thinker Tommy. The other night we were driving in the car and Tommy was very quiet in the car (which is VERY rare). After some quiet time he said "Momma, when I go to bed tonight I am going to pray to God that you, me and daddy die at the same time." Tony and I looked at each other a bit stunned. Tony asked him why he was going to pray for that and he replied "I don't want to be on this planet all by myself."
He is such a deep thinker. He has recently had many questions about death and where he will live when he grows up. In fact he fell apart recently when I told him that when he is 18 he moves out and gets his own house. He kept crying and saying "But Momma I am always going to live with you." I finally had to tell him that he could live with us as long as he wanted.
He is also VERY eager for another baby. I think he is more eager than I am actually. He asks everyday when we will have a baby and he is constantly making her gifts (he calls her a her, I love that because I want a her so bad I can taste it!!).
The wedding plans are coming along. I am enjoying every minute of it. I finally got my dress on Tuesday and I put it on again of Friday night for my maid of honor and I still love it so it is a good sign.
My preschool is going well. I am happy to have two new students. Molly Van Reisen comes one morning a week and Ty Kubicek comes two to three days a week. They both are a welcome addition.
Our most recent news is we have had a very tragic death in the family on Wednesday February 20th. It will be a day that I will never be able to forget. He was in our family for almost 20 years. He was a constant companion to Tony and I am just not sure how to walk through this with him. I will definately need your prayers. Although he was hot when you wanted him cold and cold when you wanted him hot and he was also known to disappear without letting us know from time to time we loved him just as he was. We do know that he is in a better place now where all old Nissan pick ups go when they have taken there last putt putt down the highway. Tony's truck has died!! Funeral information to come. We replaced him on Friday with a White Chrysler Town and Country Mini-Van. AHHHHHHH WE ARE MINI VAN DRIVERS!! There is nothing Rock-n-Roll about a mini van. We will have to dress her up with some cool stickers or something, and maybe transfer the old "Ebba" license plate in memory of the old truck. Prayers will be appreciated to get us through this difficult time.

It seems like yesterday

Tommy on his first birthday. He was so excited about his John Deere

I can't believe he is 4!!

Our boy is 4 today!! It is quite baffling to me how fast the time has gone. It feels just like yesterday that I held him in my arms and rocked him to sleep. Now bed times are full of wrestling and tickling which I also enjoy. I remember playtimes of pouring out all of my plastic containers from the kitchen and now it is a huge elaborate scene full of every toy he owns. I remember his first steps, his first big boo boo, his first words, and now he is full of running, many boo boos and days full of many many many many words. All in all I am enjoying every step of his life but I do find myself today longing for the baby in him. I do get to see glimpses of it when he crawls into bed with me in the morning and just can't seem to get close enough to me. Sometimes I think of how lucky we are to have such a healthy happy little boy!! A temper tantrum here or there is nothing compared to what many parents have to endure today. Thank you God for that reminder.

It has been a long time

I know I know it has been a long time. I started to wonder if many were reading this and now I have heard from a few people (Hi Stacy and Carolyn)that you wondered why I had not posted so here is a post. We have been busy, yes but the biggest reason why I have not posted is that we desperately need a new computer!! I get so frustrated with this thing taking so long. I can only handle it for so long.
The preschool is up and running. I have been doing interviews with kids. I am trying to one day at a time leave it up to God. I know the school will fill if I leave it up to him and just listen to my intuitive thoughts on what actions I should be taking. Today my action was to show it off to two prospective kids.
Wedding plans are coming along. We had the paperwork drawn up for the reception site yesterday. We have our eyes on a caterer. So the date is set for sure. We are getting married on June 28th 2008. I do have to say this I woke up yesterday with the chill in the air. I want a September wedding!! I am just so afraid I am going to bake on my wedding day in June!! So the truth is I might bake on my wedding day but I will have a lifetime of options with vacations because Tony and I will both have the time off as oposed to September when both of us will be begining a school year. So I am praying to find contentment with June.
Tommy started riding his bike this week that his Aunt Dede bought for him on his second birthday from Germany I do believe. I think she had to cart this little bike all the way back from Germany!! He is finally big enough to ride it. It is pretty darn cute watching his serious face trying to figure it out. He has had a couple of spills. Daddy calls them war wounds. He got right back on but now he appreciates his knee and elbow pads much more!!
Well I suppose that is all for now. I would love all of your prayers that I can continue to let go and let God make the decisions in regarding my school. I know that I will be much happier if I can do that daily and the people that love me that live with me will be even happier! God Bless you all